We do this sometimes, Ant and me. Just sit and talk. Dad to son. ” have I told you how happy I am you are here? I am. I’m going to be the best dad I can be.” I said. I look over at Silvy who has snuggled into me more. I lower my voice more. ” And I am going to be the best husband I can be for your mom. We aren’t married yet but that is my goal. So if you could put in a good word with your mom for me that would be great.” I said. Ant moves his mouth again.” Thanks, buddy. Glad you are on my side. She doesn’t know this but I love your mom with all my heart. That is why I agreed with her to have you. Got to tell you Ant. It was the best decision I ever made. If I had a chance to have you or chose a different path. I would choose you and your mom every time. Even though you wake up at awful hours during the night.”
As we talked I watched his eyes get heavy but he was fighting it. So I kept talking and carefully rocked him so I wouldn’t jar Silvy. ” I think you Mom and I make a pretty good team so far. I think we will get better with time. We will get a routine figured out. And what we don’t know we can ask any of your Aunts or Uncles. One of them will know the answer. There are enough kids between them to have come across almost every situation.” I said. I lean over and kiss his forehead as he closes his eyes again.” Sleep, little man. Daddy has you. I will always have you and your mom.”
Silvy
I don’t know how long I was sleeping on Goof. I remember feeding Ant then Goof taking him to burp him. I laid my head on Goof’s shoulder. I know I was tired and felt like I could close my eyes for just a minute or two. I was wrong. The next thing I heard was Goof talking to Anthony telling him to sleep that Goof had Ant and me. I just lay there listening to them talk. Well, Goof talk. Just like he used to do to my stomach. It seems some things never change. Instead of talking to the baby through my stomach Goof is just talking to the baby now. It is sweet that he does it. I wonder how many talks I have missed because I was sleeping. It doesn’t matter. It is their bonding time. I’m not going to intrude on it. I liked what Goof said about being there for Ant and me.
I would normally I would question what Goof said. Or think that he says that now but for how long? I’m not doing that this time. I believe what he is telling Anthony. Because why would he lie to a baby that can’t talk back or question? His son. Besides Goof may be many things but a liar is not one of them. It has always been me that had doubts without reason. I’m tired of being that way. I don’t want to doubt Goof anymore. He has been by my side every step of the way since we started trying to get pregnant. He let me hold his hands as I pushed. I found out later that I had bruised his hands and broken one pinkie, I felt so bad but Goof said it was worth it to contribute to bringing Anthony into the world.
Goof never left the hospital. He has only left the house for work or the club. And that is for short times. I honestly expected him to be gone shortly after coming home when he realized how hard it
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was to take care of a baby. Or go to sleep at the clubhouse at night and come over during the day. Goof proves me wrong at every turn. I agreed to try to make this relationship work. But I secretly waited for the other shoe to drop. I’m done with doing that. Goof deserves my full effort and I am going to give it to him.
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Reckless Renegades Goof and Silvy’s Story
Sara Lili is a daring romance writer who turns icy landscapes into scenes of fiery passion. She loves crafting hot love stories while embracing the chill of Iceland’s breathtaking cold.
