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Our Anthony is two months old now. He stays up more and is more alert. Silvy and I have settled into a working routine. And we are happy. Or I was. I love my son and my girl Silvy. I love them with everything in me. But today I need a break. Ant cried all day yesterday. No matter what Silvy did she couldn’t get him to stop for more than ten minutes. I tried myself but nothing worked. We both took turns through the night rocking him, trying to get him to eat, and patting his back, Silvy even gave Ant gas medicine to try to help. Nothing worked. We were both exhausted. Silvy stayed downstairs in
the living room so I could get some rest.
I could still hear Ant through the night even when I covered my ears with a pillow. I was only able to get a couple of hours of sleep. When I woke up this morning I could hear Ant’s muffled cries through the closed door. What was wrong with that kid? I got up and checked the time. I had to be at the club in an hour for church. Fuck. I went to the bathroom to take a piss and washed my face. I quickly got dressed and made my way downstairs. Silvy was in the kitchen at the counter making coffee. Ant was in a carrier strapped to her chest as she swayed back and forth. Ant was still crying. His eyes were red. He looked so tired.
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Mommy has you,” Silvy said patting his back. Silvy quickly made herself a cup of coffee and then stepped aside. I step up to get some and see Silvy has already made me a cup. Just like she always does for me. Silvy not only takes care of me but Ant at the same time. I grabbed the cup and took a hard pull of it not caring it was hot. I needed to wake up before I got on my bike. Silvy was sipping her coffee while Ant’s cries turned to whimpers. He might be settling down now. Silvy looked exhausted. She had dark circles under her eyes. All her movements were like she was on autopilot. She just keeps swaying to keep Ant happy. She is a zombie and is still making sure our baby is happy. I know she is trying to be a good mom. So why can’t she stop Ant’s constant crying? I’m back to work I need sleep. Silvy still has a week before she has to go back,
I can’t have my brothers pissed at me because I fell asleep at work or in church. None of my other brothers had this problem. I watch Ant turn his head and start screaming. Silvy places her coffee on the counter and pats his back. She shushes him and presses him closer to her trying to calm him but nothing is working. I can’t stand it. I slam my mug on the counter not caring that coffee splashes out.” Silvy, I am exhausted. I have to go to church and then work. Can you get him to stop? You are a nurse for fuck -sake. Can’t you figure out what is wrong with him?” I snapped. She looks at me with shock in her eyes from my outburst. What did she expect?” Goof, I have tried everything I know to do. It isn’t gas. He doesn’t have a fever. He isn’t sick that I can see. He just wants to cry and not be put down.” she said with a huff.
Sara Lili is a daring romance writer who turns icy landscapes into scenes of fiery passion. She loves crafting hot love stories while embracing the chill of Iceland’s breathtaking cold.
