Chapter 46
Chapter 46
Lydia
Melanie is still weak, but after being discharged from the hospital, she regained herself in the next two days.
As promised, Mom organized a mini–party for them.
1just finished speaking to the doctor. He was still in search of a suitable kidney. I know it’s too soon, and maybe it thinks it’s unreasonable, but I am a mother.
I am desperate, and I will do anything to save my child.
I tried to keep a healthy smile in front of my loved ones, but how far can I go in hiding my troubled heart behind the facade?
“What are you thinking about? You’ve been lost in thought all day?” Mom said.
I didn’t realize she was in my room. I’m seated on my bed, resting my back on the wooden bed frame.
“When did you come in, Mom?” I asked, adjusting in the bed. I crossed my legs under me.
She sits on the bed, creating a crest in the bedspread.
“You didn’t even notice when I entered.” She shook her head in a way to say this must be bad.
I stretched and placed my phone on the small table beside the bed. I couldn’t help but wonder when she entered. How much has she heard?
“Nothing, Mom, I’m okay,” I said.
“You can’t lie to me, Lydia. I know you’ve been trying to keep your troubles under a façade. I’m your mother.” She adjusted. The foam deepened.
“I know you.” She took my hand in hers, and for a moment, I was tempted to break down.
“I know when you are bothered. If you aren’t ready to tell me what’s wrong, it’s fine, just don’t lie to me, and never think that you are alone.”
She smiles, “Cause you always had me with you.” She added and brushed a few strands of hair on my face.
1nodded and moved closer.
Growing up in an orphanage was like survival of the fittest. I have learnt all I know myself, I had to care for myself and rely on myself.
The first time I had someone to rely on was when Mason walked into my life but he left as easily as he entered.
I am not used to having people care for me. I decided to use that as the perfect excuse as to why I wasn’t telling Mom what was wrong with me, and that kinda comforted me.
She placed her hand on the small of my shoulder. My gaze was down as I stared at my legs.
“You can tell me if you feel overwhelmed. Things don’t always go well, and I’ll never judge you.” I felt something warm slide down my cheeks.
1/3
Chapter 46
I couldn’t hold it back. You can’t blame me..
My shoulders began to shake.
She straightened my legs and covered the space between us. She hugged me, pulling me close to herself.
She didn’t say anything. We just remained there.
The hug was warm, soothing my soul deeply.
I
I wrapped my hand around her, afraid that if I didn’t, she would disappear and I would never see her again.
Later, I laid my head on her lap, curling my legs on the bed. She passed her hand through my hair.
“You know, when I had you, I thought my world was completed.” She started.
I tensed.
She must have sensed it because she didn’t speak for the next minute.
This wasn’t something we spoke about.
After that day five years ago, we never spoke about it. It was as though there was an unspoken rule between us to keep it in the past.
And right now, all I think about is that she just broke that rule.
“We were together briefly, but you were my joy, the highlight of my entire life, and when I left you at the orphanage, I knew I had lost a piece of myself.” She paused.
The room was dim, and the window was locked, but the curtains were pulled to the side, allowing us to see the view of the night
“I knew I would not be able to live the rest of my life without you.” She added. I closed my eyes, leaning into her hand as it passed through my hair again.
“How can a human live without its complete part? But at the same time, I realized I didn’t want to appear in front of you as the woman I was.” She looked down at me.
“I would not have judged you, Mom.” I heard myself say, my voice barely a
a whisper.
“I know that. But I wanted to be the mom you deserve. I guess that was my only way of paying you the time we spent apart.”I pressed my lips together, not sure what to say, so I closed my eyes.
But there are some things that money can’t buy, like this moment. Like you.” Now, I didn’t know where this conversation was heading.
“You are my jewel; you mean a lot to me.” she drew in a breath, her voice broke, and my eyes whipped open.
“Lay still.” I was more of a request than a command, but I obeyed.
“You mean the whole world to me. You’ve always had.” She removed her hand from my
hair.
“And then, I had to watch you give life. You created a world of your own, too.” Something cold hit me. The hair on hand all stood,
Chapter 46
Maybe I knew what this was about.
“I would give my life for you if necessary because you are my child, my love, my life. And you would do the same for your twins Tears slid to the side of my face.
“You know about Melanie?” I asked. That was the only reasonable explanation for what she was saying.
“But I can’t watch my daughter carry the burden alone. It breaks me that you didn’t tell me about it,” She said.
“Because I knew it would break you.”
rose from her lap, not minding that it was defying her request.
“I understand how you feel perfectly,” she said, and I didn’t ask her how she knew about the kidney transplant. I didn’t need to know.
“I will always be here for you. And I want to assure you that Melanie will be fine. We’ll get the kidney.”
Sara Lili is a daring romance writer who turns icy landscapes into scenes of fiery passion. She loves crafting hot love stories while embracing the chill of Iceland’s breathtaking cold.
Synopsis : Worst Fear
